WIO - Week 3 PROGRESS (& madness)

WIO - Week 3 Progress

Recap:

On Thurs. Mar 15, 2012, I started this journey with the Weight is Over program, created by Jason Whitney. The program reboots your pancreas. It is a low carb plan where you combine protein shakes with healthy food. I am seeing AMAZING results!

Zombie Attack in My Head

What is my deal this week?  I had another little break-down yesterday.  Oh Adam bless you for being the most patient man in the world.  I caved and had some pretzels and then I was so mad at myself.

I feel like my demons have been out to play this week, and I practically lost the fight and threw the towel in.  What in the world?!!!!  Why would I do that?  Isn’t it insane that our inner fat chick can be so powerful??  That bitch seriously wants some carbs.  She has been painting visions of sugar plums (ok not really, what in the hell is a sugar plum?).  But seriously all kinds of visions of evil and delicious food has been dancing in my head.  Its like they are dancing in front of me.  Cheeseburgers, pizza, mmm chocolate cake, caramel sauce, ice cream, bread!  I fed Sammi a grilled cheese sandwich and I was literally salivating over the damn thing.

Wowsers how did I get so out of control.  I just got so mad about it last night.  I still have my cold, I was so exhausted from work, school, and the program.  Adam knew I needed a much-needed break so I took a nap while he made dinner.  Don’t I have an amazing husband?  Trust me I know it and appreciate him so much.

It’s so funny how your crazy mind works.  My evil twin Molly was convincing me I just couldn’t do it. How can I bet a mom, wife, go to school full time, school full time, and do a program.  There is just no way right?  Wrong!  I can.  I got this!

I think the real problem was that I ran out muffins and the special flour to make more.  I will make sure that doesn’t happen again.  Because honestly I only have a hard time when I’m hungry and about to eat if there is food I don’t choose to eat around (Jason, did you like how I didn’t say CAN’T EAT.  I thought you’d like that) and I’m hungry.  When I eat my food, I am totally satisfied and not hungry and not craving anything.  I just need to make sure I don’t run out of snacks.

Seriously fat chick in me, you aren’t going to win.  I’m pushing you out.  Healthy bitch wants her life back and is gradually coming out.  I WANT to eat healthy because I WANT to live a nice long life.  I want to be healthy and I want Sammi to be healthy.  I want to ride bikes as a family and go on trips.  I am sick of not being able to do things because of my weight. 

Seriously it comes down to this.  Are you going to choose life or choose a donut?  I’ve made my choice and I’M STICKING TO IT!