Sick, Sick, and Away!

Guess What?

I’m gonna do my hair today (if I remember how lol)!!!  No really, I am….later though.  Gotta work.

Summary as of late:

*SAMMI =

*ADAM =

*ME =

Any Questions?  Life is certainly an adventure!

Damn you delicious cookies!

Hello!  Did you miss me peeps (hee hee)?  How are you my friend Cyber Space?  How comforting to know that you are the only one who reads my nonsense.  Seriously!  (I’m suddenly reminded of a time Jen told my mother I was writing everything in my journal on a vacation and my mom said ‘don’t worry Jen, no one will read her stupid journal anyway’.  I think the same could be said of my blog lol.  Its my therapy!!!)

And yet blogging helps me most the time – except nothing helped me yesterday when I had S-E-V-E-N (yeah you read that right – seven!) of these:

Damn Deliciously Evil Cookies of Satan

 How disgusting is that?  

And I have no reason, no excuse.  Well that just means no wonderful cheat on Saturday.

This week’s goals:

·      Record ALL Weight Watchers points (not just the ones I’ll admit to lol) online AND stay within my point values (which hello at my weight should be easy since I get a bazillion points)
·      Attend WW meeting (I have to say they ARE actually helpful – go figure and I’m not saying that just because my mother-in-law works there lol)

LAST WEEK:  I actually lost 2.2 pounds.  MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!!!!

What NOT to do lol....

See now I’m on a different computer, can’t find my cool font!  Well this one is rather fancy, feel like I should get my quill pen out and start writing about what the raven quoteth or something.

Anywho, I am the purest evidence of what NOT to do on Weight Watchers.  But I am determined to become the best example there ever was.

I will turn my biggest weaknesses into strengths.

(PS, Harrington is a pretty cool font ya’ll!) If I had just put in enough effort to lose 2 pounds each week, I would now weigh 408!  I would almost be 400 pounds.  But instead I’ve lost and gained tons so now I’m 437.4.  What a huge difference.  That really helped me to think of that.  What can I learn from that?  MAKE THE NEXT 10 WEEKS COUNT!

It’s Time to Live!  Make every moment count.

Remember my plan to eat this grub?: (more protein, less carbs during the day):

·        Eggs & coffee

·        Cottage cheese

·        Turkey sandwich & veggies

·        Yogurt & fruit

·        Meat & veggies for dinner

This is what I’ve had thus far:

·        Apple Jacks, coffee

·        Cheese stick & yogurt

Adam is on his way to Wendy’s to get us lunch, and what I really WANT is (seriously it’s like there is this beast inside me that wants yummy, fattening food):

           

What he is really getting me is:

   

We are having healthy stew tonight, so I’ll get my veggies in then.

Just a Fat Blog: Cowabunga

Ok Holly girl, you are going to follow Weight Watchers from now on AND you are going to L-I-K-E it, (not like that girl you kissed lol).  Come now don't freak out - you KNOW you liked that catchy song.  No worries, I'm not from Lesbiana or anything (we still don't know where the egg they found under that rock came from.

I think I'm funny, but I'm really FAT!  I'm even fatter than I was then:

 

NOW is the time to do something about that "root beer belly" before you really do look like:

Honey Boo Boo's Mom!

Holy Moly, do you ever feel overwhelmed from picking font types?  It used to be that Comic Sans was my favorite – but I think that was back when I was 10 and we barely had computers, so there was probably like a total of 10 different font types available.  It’s crazy picking them when there are like 1000 or something. And it always looks cool in like the sample, and then you pick it and it looks horrid.  But I digress…..

Anywho I’m weighing in tonight and I know I’m gaining.  So I keep using it as an excuse saying, oh I’ll be good once I weigh in – well that doesn’t work if it’s been 3 weeks since you’ve weighed in!  I’m so ALL or NOTHING.  I’m going to talk to my therapist about that today – nice Jewish lady.  J

So here is my plan to eat something like this (more protein, less carbs during the day):

·        Eggs & coffee

·        Cottage cheese

·        Turkey sandwich & veggies

·        Yogurt & fruit

·        Meat & veggies for dinner

Go me (you fat tub of lard you)!

 

(PS, I miss Bob Ross...did you know it was his birthday today???  I'm so sad without him...kinda.  Well at least I know he probably eats lunch up there with my grandpa)

365 Days of Hell:Days 20/365

365 Days of Hell:Days 20/365

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt.  I am a foodaholic (no applause please).  I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover:  Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic” life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!).  But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood).  My starting weight:  428 pounds.  On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers.  On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Begins.  365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife,  work full time, and go to school full time.  No excuses!
DAY 20 – Sunday

Assessment
I think I did better today at getting more veggies in.  I wish I would have done more than just housework though.  C.

365 Days of Hell:Days 19/365

365 Days of Hell: Days 19/365

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt. I am a foodaholic (no applause please). I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic”life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!). But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood). My starting weight: 428 pounds. On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers. On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Begins. 365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife, work full time, and go to school full time. No excuses!
DAY 19 – Saturday
I'm not impressed with today.  I should have done more workout out, and I should've done a lighter cheat since I had cheated earlier in the week.

REVIEW:

C-

365 Days of Hell: Days 18/365

365 Days of Hell:  Days 18/365

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt.  I am a foodaholic (no applause please).  I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover:  Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic” life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!).  But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood).  My starting weight:  428 pounds.  On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers.  On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Begins.  365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife,  work full time, and go to school full time.  No excuses!
DAY 18 – Friday
Lagoon

Sammi hated posing and the dress!

Oh man can I just tell you Lagoon is very different for me as I’m now an overweight adult.  As a child I remember it just being pure bliss and it was a challenge to see how many scary rides you could get in.  I wasn't limited by anything.  Things are different these days......I can’t really go on any rides, but I knew that going in, so it was a good reminder to me of why I’m doing this.

But it was really fun seeing  Sammi go on rides.  Poor thing though didn’t like going on rides by herself, except for the boat ride.  She loved how you could ring the bell.  She had a hard time waiting in line she wanted to go on the ride so bad.  It also was nice getting to know more of Adam's coworkers.

Its funny how the rides aren't my only memory.  I remember how delicious the food was also.  The corn over by the log ride that was dripping with butter.  The hot scones with butter and honey - the ice cream.  Such delicious memories.  lol why are all of my favorite memories covered in chocolate and whip cream lol.

As you can tell from my screenprint, we did indulge in the ice cream.

 Working Out

I kicked ass today!  Lisa and I did a really good workout - I almost couldn't keep up with it lol.  I did a little weeding and then there was the hours of walking around at Lagoon.  YEAH ME!

 REVIEW:

I get more of a C+ when it comes to today because I pretty much failed with the food but I got an A+ for exercise.

365 Days of Hell: Days 12-17/365

365 Days of Hell:  Days 12-17/365

Recap:
My name is Holly Holt.  I am a foodaholic (no applause please).  I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover:  Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic” life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!).  But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood).  My starting weight:  428 pounds.  On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers.  On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Begins.  365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife,  work full time, and go to school full time.  No excuses!
DAY 12 – Saturday
Milcreek Canyon
So we went to Milcreek Canyon today.  So many of my plans just didn’t go through, like my plan to go on a big hike and eat healthy snacks which I forgot to bring.  Seriously I’m so FAILING at planning right now and I’m getting sick of the excuses.  Now our lunch was healthy and breakfast I didn’t do too bad.  By the time we got home we were so exhausted!

Sammi Time
I have to throw in a pic of my baby sleeping up at Milcreek.  Isn’t she adorable?  Yes, I know I don’t deserve it.  The sweetest baby ever.  I thank heaven for my little sweetheart every day!

DAY 13 – Sunday
Grindage

I think this works better and is more to the point.  Not only do I have to track, but then show exactly what I ate.  Very smart (this head isn’t just a cute hat rack)!

Rude, it won’t let me finish tracking for yesterday, so look for this tomorrow.
Move yo’ ass!
-Its already ten and nothing yet unless you count cleaning the kitchen which I don’t!

DAY 14 – Monday
I’m so proud of myself today I have to say. I’m finally doing it right again – back on track.
Food
Today wasn’t easy.  We had a team lunch at the Brick Oven, which is a pizza joint I’ve everyone rave about.  Mmmm, I love me some pizza.

But I decided well before going that I would be strong.  When I got there I nearly waivered because it was only a dollar more to get all-you-can-eat pizza with the salad bar.  I WAS STRONG.  Mark it down peeps.  But actually, it won’t be such a rarity.  I can do this and I will!  Hoorah!

Exercise

And another A+ for Mrs. Holt! 

• 45 minutes aerobics (thank you Mrs. Lisa Price!  You are an inspiration)
• 30 minutes with Sammi (hooray for her new push bike that she L-O-V-E-S)!!!!

This is seriously impressive.  J

Feelings
I’m feeling just so vastly proud!  Yeah me, keep being awesome!  We need this effort every day.  BE STRONG!!!  This pic is my proud and happy as a lark face lol.  (Hey you gotta love these highs in an effort to have more of them)

DAY 15 – Tuesday
I weighed in today and gained 1.4 pounds but I am not giving up.  I just need to eat more veggies and stay focused.

DAY 16 – Wednesday
I decided I need to just show what I eat and how much I exercise:

Exercise

I totally rocked it in exercise today.  Thank you Max and Hailey, my adorable niece and nephew who kept me running around literally for 2 hours.  You rock!

DAY 17 – Thursday

I don’t even have to say anything………..look at these horrible results.

What the hell?  And all evening I’ve been thinking, oh I just won’t post that I ate that. No, I have to be honest.  So what was the first mistake – the pizza from my training.  I justified it thinking at least I had the veggie pieces and only had 2 pieces instead of like 4 that I would normally have.  But then I made even more mistakes though by stopping at a gas station for a drink and getting a KING size candy bar AND a huge rice crispy treat.  Oh SHIT that isn’t even everything.  After the pizza I literally had 1/3 of a loaf of pumpkin bread.  ::Bangs head against wall HARD::

And I didn’t plan my day well – didn’t get up early enough to exercise because it was my study all night day.  I’m disappointed.

Going Forward

Tomorrow is Lagoon day for Adam’s work and I know they have really yummy things there, but I need to get salad and focus on all of that great walking I’ll be doing.  I also will try not to be sad that I can’t ride any rides lol.  I want to turn this into motivation to me and not depress me further or anything.  CONSISTANCY IS KEY!

And I can’t be sad that I can’t have a funnel cake or something because if I’d been good today I probably could have.  DUH.

365 Days of Hell – Day 11

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt. I am a foodaholic (no applause please). I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic”life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!). But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood). My starting weight: 428 pounds. On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers. On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Began. 365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife, work full time, and go to school full time. No excuses!

Day 11
Accountability

I’m mostly back on track today, though I only cleaned today and didn’t exercise so I’m kicking myself a little (ouch that hurt).  I also want to have more veggies or NEED to anyway lol.

Past Confession

So don’t you just get perked up when someone says they are going to confess something?  Like you just know it’s going to be good.

Ok so here is something I will confess to food-wise.  When I worked at Select Health (though it was called Intermountain Health Care or IHC when I was there), I didn’t want people to see me eating anything unhealthy especially when I was supposed to be dieting lol.  (Oh that shame!)

So I would buy something from the downstairs café etc or get one of those giant pink cookies.  Then I would wrap it in napkins so as I walked you had no idea what it was (obviously I’m hiding broccoli in here people lol).  Then so no one would see me eat it, I would sneak into a bathroom stall (being careful not to touch anything gross).  So yeah, can you just picture this pathetic fatty sitting there chowing down on a giant pink cookie in the bathroom?  Sheesh!  And it was really hard thank you when someone came in.  I had to get all sneaky and try to chew really slowly and quietly.  Oh my. 

More confessions to come.  Peach out (or peace out as the saying really goes)

365 Days of Hell – Day 10

365 Days of Hell – Day 10

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt. I am a foodaholic (no applause please). I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic”life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!). But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood). My starting weight: 428 pounds. On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers. On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Began. 365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife, work full time, and go to school full time. No excuses!

Weigh-in Day

Time to pay the piper.  Yep up 2.5 lbs.  Oh well deal with it.  I’m so doing good from now on.

365 Days of Hell – Days 5-9

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt. I am a foodaholic (no applause please). I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic”life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!). But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood). My starting weight: 428 pounds. On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers. On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Began. 365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife, work full time, and go to school full time. No excuses!

Days 5-9

Okay what the hell!  I’m so mad at myself.  How could I have had such an awesome first week and then stop.  See this is my problem.  MOST humans do so good for weeks until they actually slip a little.  UGH!!!!  I kick myself hard and then I kick me again.

Accountability

Well today it’s time to pay the piper.  As they say on that horrible show that rejected me (which I totally watch lol)….the SCALE doesn’t lie (although don’t you think it does at times?)

Reflection

Ok, so at least you can learn from your mistakes, right?  So what went wrong?  I didn’t track as much – did it sort of half-assed.  Then that made me start doing everything that way.  So just follow the rules and all will be okay.

365 Days of Hell - 4/365

365 Days of Hell – Day Four 7/19/12

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt. I am a foodaholic (no applause please). I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic”life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!). But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood). My starting weight: 428 pounds. On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers. On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Began. 365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife, work full time, and go to school full time. No excuses!

Day 4 Weigh-in

Okay I’m stunned seriously.  I can’t even believe it.  I went in to weigh in today.  Granted, I went in the morning instead of evening like last week because I have Bonko tonight and it is the first week.  But still I never expected to lose 14 pounds!!!

Yeah, you read that right.  I lost 14 pounds!  Now I know I’m not going to lose this every week by any means.  The first week you lose a lot.

But holy cow what an affirmation seriously.

Me Happy!

Goals

EXERCISE:

Today is gonna be tough!  I have Bonko tonight so I gotta get my full workout in WAY before.

-Just had a really intense 30 minutes on the treadmill.  I had the incline up to 2.5 for almost the whole time and I even jogged a few minutes.  Very exciting and empowering feeling that sweat pore done and I’m just mentally cheering myself on going ‘You can do this’.  I have to say watching “Extreme Makeover:  Weight Loss Edition” really helps me stay motivated and work hard.  For my other 30 minutes I may do something on the Kinect just to split things up, get a different workout.

-This might be kind of cheating but I counted my cleaning as working out.  I feel good about it lol.

TRACKING: 

Checkmark!  Just gotta keep it up.  And pretty much I have the WW website up all day lol.

FEWER CARBS:

I’ve got to be really good – and it’s becoming tough.  I forgot my salads so I’m doing sandwiches which is more carbs than I wanted.  I still think though that if this week I do almost no carbs for breakfast and all snacks, I’m there.

Reflection

Disneyland!  So I’m just waiting for when Adam’s family is going to want to go to Disneyland.  Just yesterday Kim was saying Kiya just needs to grow one more inch to be able to go on every single ride.

Now Disneyland rides are actually pretty big – a lot bigger than Lagoon anyway.

The last time I went on those rides I think I was just over 300 and was ok on the rides.  So that is definitely something fun to look forward to.

It may sound really stupid and not that big of a deal, but its been years since I’ve been on a ride.  Knowing that you can’t do something because of you is horrible!  Its very upsetting and it makes you just want to change things. And I am.