Still here bitches

I will never give up!

I am such an idiot.  And the funny thing is that actually I’m quite intelligent (I mean, just ask me about it lol)…but for letting this weight problem rule my life, I am a major idiot.

Lisa and I were talking about that HUNGER for food and how pathetic it is that something delicious can seem to rule our life.  Like really I want a donut more than I want to be healthy for Sammi?!!!!  That is appalling!  Almost as bad as me nearly poisoning her and letting her drop a 10 pound weight on her foot all in the same day (don’t ask, its been a shitty week).

I mean seriously!

I think lately I was so mad at myself for not doing better before I get preggers (not yet, calm down peeps but its coming up soon with any luck) that I think I just gave up and used it as an excuse.

But it is NEVER too late.  You have to get over the past and just live in the now.

True I had quite a few donuts and several treats lately but no mas lady. 

I also played soccer and have been to the gym a lot lately (bought a pass woot).

So here we go!

Keep on Trucking!

HOW BAD DO YOU WANT THIS?

I’m watching Extreme Weight Loss.  It’s crazy to think about how I was being considered for this show!  I wasn’t sure if I’d even want to watch it – Ugh I’m so sick of the excuses. I think it is just all about making good choices ALL of the time.

Last night my work took us to a movie so by the time I was going home I was starving and didn’t

same with Biggest Loser.  But I’m glad I do because it is pretty motivating! want to cook so I stopped to get Wendy’s for us.  I told myself, you have to choose now.  So I got chilli and a small grilled chicken sandwhich.  Just have to keep doing that.

Losing, but in a GOOD way!

What do you want?

So I lost 3.2 pounds last week.  Woot!

I’m not sure how that happened because we hadn’t been shopping or anything lol.

I’ve been kind of or lets say WAY off my game these last couple of days. Finally went to instacare and found I have sinus and an ear infection.  No wonder!  I was so feeling crapping the last half of the work week!  Oh how it all comes together lol.

I want to be healthy.  That’s it.  I want it and I’m going to make it happen.  I’ve got to eat healthy to become healthy.

I can have a couple of days before I exercise until I’m feeling 100%.

Today Sammi and I got our ears pierced.  That was so much fun.  It made me feel pretty and I haven’t felt that in a long time.

What is it about being fat and sad that makes you not even worry about shaving your legs anymore.  Yikes!  Sammi is a girly girl!  I am too when I’m not lazy.  I see hours of doing our hair, make-up, and nails in the future.  J

Yellow-stoned Out!

One with the Buffalo

I can’t even begin to explain how very tired and sore this body is at this moment.  I haven’t even fully unpacked though we came home last night from Yellowstone.

I had a feeling it would be really rough, for the last time we went (3 years ago) I was a little lighter and it was hard.  I had no idea what I was in store for.

Thankfully Adam’s family is kind and patient, for I belt like the biggest damn burden of a whale ever.  The day we went to Old Faithful, we walked over five miles.  Let’s just say I had no problem getting in 10,000 steps every day lol.

But I’m just disgusted and furious with myself for how this affects my life.  I couldn’t hold her a lot of the time and I couldn’t keep up with the main group much of the time.  She is getting bigger and I want to be able to run around and discover the world with her.  She will want Disneyland in a couple of years.  Do I want to join her on the rides or be miserable watching all the fun?

Luckily I know just what to do and despite all I ate, with all the walking I lost what I had gained the week before the trip.  I just so need to get in shape before getting pregnant.

Some amazing trip moments:

·       Sammi playing with her cousins and having the time of her life

·       Seeing hundreds of buffalo, right next to our car

·       Seeing tons of bears at Bear World

·       Watching all the amazing geysers, springs, and mud pots

·       It hailing on us and then a rainbow appeared

·       2 different times elk running through the parking lots

·       Sammi’s awe at seeing buffalo!

Yo Yo Yo-Short and Sweet!

I’m so Tired!

Ok so I’m much better than yesterday.  Yeah things are still crazy, but I’m so looking forward to my vacation and I’m doing better on the whole health-front.  Halle…freaking…lullah!