the truth

I smile most the time but its just a lie. I will never understand how a woman with such an amazing husband and daughter can be so unhappy. What right have I? But yet I'm miserable from the time I wake up. Work is insufferable. And I'm so sick of the pain. Emotional and physical. I don't want to do anything. The house is a disaster. And yet I just don't want to do anything. Just want to eat bad food. What a fool right? Missing my mom out of nowhere lately. Trying to keep my chin up but why is it so hard.