365 Days of Hell 2/365

365 Days of Hell – Day Two

Recap:

My name is Holly Holt. I am a foodaholic (no applause please). I have been rejected thrice for the Biggest Loser and wasn’t chosen for Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, despite my own “dramatic”life story and uber charismatic sassiness (I know, unbelievable!). But I’ve decided once and for all that it’s time for me to take matters into my own hands. I have tried a million program, diets, etc, but this time I’m determined to get rid of the fat suit once and for all through blood, sweat, and tears (preferably more sweat, less actual blood). My starting weight: 428 pounds. On July 12^th I started Weight Watchers. On July 16, 365 Days of Hell Began. 365 Days of exercising every day at least one hour, even though I’m a mother and wife, work full time, and go to school full time. No excuses!

Day 2

Someone didn't do their hair!

EXERCISE:

I’m just lucky that Lisa is coming over soon to workout because I didn’t wake up early today.  We are going to do one of the Turbo Jam videos which are seriously killer!  But then tonight I will definitely need to do more.

-Holy cow that was a tough workout!  We did one of Jillian’s workouts.  Damn that girl is brutal.  I had to modify a couple of parts where she is jumping but we were both just sweating like crazy.

-Just did another 30 minutes working out on the Treadmill.  I can’t go super fast with my possible bone spur and plantar fasciitis, but I did an incline of 3.5 which is really high for me.  Yeah me!  Even though I’m tired, I just feel really strong and empowered.

-I wanted to do more tonight but I don’t want to kill myself off at once I guess lol.  I’ll do 2 hours tomorrow.  J

I’m sorry, but I have to say I rock!  But then again, now doesn’t count, it counts weeks from now if I’m still sticking to it!

TRACKING: 

You really have no excuse not to track.  The weight watchers online makes it SO easy.

-Ha I say that and I just realized I forgot to update from what I planned on having for dinner and what I ended up having (didn’t want to cook so I asked Adam to get Subway-there was also a little bit of an argument involved and me freaking out a little but I won’t bore you with the details lol)

FEWER CARBS:

Did I have low carb today?  Mostly, but again I believe in a balance so I didn’t have NO carbs. 

Reflection

Today I was watching Extreme Makeover:  Weightloss Edition.  I am so inspired by this show, but I’m so mad!  I will finally own up to it.  I’m really bitter I wasn’t chosen………here’s the scoop.  Let’s see if I can even remember the order of things.  I think four times I’ve tried out for the Biggest Loser.  The 3^rd time (if memory recalls), my sister Jen and I (sorry to call you out Jen, but just like mom said with my journal where I detailed every moment of our trip to California, ‘nobody is gonna read my dumb journal (insert blog here) anyway’) tried out for the Biggest Loser together.  Click here to see our audition video.  We thought we were going to be chosen as we had to keep sending videos etc, but sadly we weren’t chosen.  I was talked into going to the Salt Lake auditions after that, and then a couple of years ago the same casting company asked me to audition for Extreme Makeover:  Weight Loss Edition. 

I’m so pissed I wasn’t chosen!  You can’t even imagine how many damn videos I made for these people.  I mean I was signing release forms and everything.  And then again same ol’ story, wasn’t picked. People kept telling me to go audition again, send in more tapes.  I’m done with those bastards.  If Bob Harper or Chris Powell show up at my doorstep, then YES I will go on their damn shows, but at this point OBVIOUSLY whatever they want, I don’t have.  I’m sorry to say but that is mystifying to me!  I’m not a moron; I know they want what is good for TV.  And I have all of that.  I have the sad, dramatic background.  I have a sassy personality so I would make for good tv that way.  Also, not to brag, I’m not all that, but I wasn’t exactly beaten with the ugly stick.  I would look quite beautiful after losing all the weight (and I’m SO humble to boot lmao).  But seriously, the only thing I don’t have is that I’m not a twin or I’m not Hispanic or something.

So I’m pissed off!  I know I’ve said that like 500 times now but I guess maybe I kept it all inside like it didn’t bother me etc.  You have no idea how many papers, letters, emails etc that I have filled out.  And all of the movies – putting your heart and soul out there being exposed like that.  All the time, effort, and most of all the emotional stress that puts on you, and then not to be chosen at all?  I seriously think they need to come up with a better casting process and just put us out of our misery EARLY ON in the process.  So I kick you weight loss shows!!!  Screw you ALL because the truth is I DON’T NEED YOU ANYWAY.

Wow that was a very long rant!

So I’m just going to do on my own and once I get there, I’m going to help other hugely fat peeps like me, especially ones who were rejected from all these damn shows for fatties.  I seriously want to help others and show them that it is possible (harder than HELL, but possible ha ha hence the name 365 Days of Hell)