My Poor Sis!!!

ER ANYONE?

I am still kind of shocked right now.  I had the most frightening experience of my life yesterday, and the crazy thing is that it didn’t even happen to me.  That’s almost what made it worse – seeing something horrible happen to someone you love……

My poor little sister Laurie has really had a shitty time lately.  And that is putting it mildly.  And without extra drama, I’m pretty sure it’s tough enough as it is to be a single mother.

She has been in a lot of pain from endometriosis for years and years.  She went to get a pap smear a few weeks ago and they called her back saying some abnormalities had been found.  They told her it was cancer.

When she told me that last week I was totally freaked.  I didn’t even know what to say to her except that I was so sorry and that I would be there through thick and then.

She had a biopsy done on Tuesday to discover how extensive the cancer was and determine if chemo was necessary etc.  She told us a few days ago that they found the cancer was benign but that she does need to get a hysterectomy due to the damage done by the endometriosis.

I was so glad it wasn’t cancer but just heartbroken to hear about the needed hysterectomy, especially since she is only 31.

But we decided to go see a movie Sunday to celebrate the fact that she didn’t have cancer.  And this is when the bad shit really happened……

She drove us to Jordan Commons and I we walk in over to the kiosk to buy our tickets.  Suddenly she is in front of me, her body flailing about wildly – her eyes going back into her head and her mouth is clenched tightly and she is making crazy sounds.

I can’t even tell you what I was thinking at that moment.  I was shocked – so horrified that this could happen to her.  I’d never seen a grand mal seizure before, and let me just tell you it is the most terrifying thing in the world to watch.  And for it to be someone that you so love and know that you can’t do anything but let it pass.

I go to grab her and ease her head as she falls to the ground – blood slowly pouring out.  How could this be happening!  And all I’m thinking is something about their tongue.  Dear God, is she biting it.  Do I move her on her stomach, on her side?  Some random dude next to me says just leave her be.  I go to call 911 and someone has already called.

Now there is a crowd growing of shocked people.  I’m just holding her, stroking her face, talking to her, hoping she will stop.  People are yelling “Does she have seizures?” “Is she diabetic?”NO people!  And these people are so very nice just trying to help, but I just feel helpless.

Finally she stops and I’m relieved for half a second until I realize she is terrified poor thing.  I try to ease her and tell her who I am and she is okay but she is just trying to escape…what happened and who are these crazy people she is thinking.

I hurry and grab our purses and she is trying to run away thinking we are trying to kidnap her or something.  We try to coax her to a bench.  Finally the paramedics are there and she eventually calms down but poor thing is so out of it.  She couldn’t remember anything.

I meet her at the hospital later and then my dad comes.  It ended up being because she was taking too much medication, not for one day, but too much at one time and then ran out so it was withdrawal.  Who knew?  So scary.

Poor thing, I just want to take all of her pain away.  I know she feels like there is just more pain and drama around every corner in all aspects of her life.  I so wish I could take it all from her!!!

I love my sister Laurie and I really hope things go okay for her.  She so deserves to win the lottery right now!  I’d appreciate your prayers for her.

I stayed with her last night and today just to make sure all was okay.  I nearly cancelled with the trainer as I just feel so exhausted etc, but I realized life is always going to be complicated and busy and things come up.  You still have to focus on your health!