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Sometimes I'm blown away at how many damnable pills I take. Its seriously insane. I'm hoping one day it won't be so many! The pain is unbearable today and I'm experiencing one of the horrid side effects of one pill I'm about to quit.

I did do a little walking at work thank God. But its one of those nights I don't want to do anything. I just wanna sleep. Work has been wearing on me lately and I need to just be like a dude and let it roll off my back. I'm watching Extreme Weightloss and I so badly want to be on one of these shows! I so hope I get chosen for the Weight for Love show. I see these shows changing peoples lives and I really need that. Life is more than reading and watching Tv. I deserve to discover that firsthand and I will keep working hard to make it happen.

I was looking at the Biggest Loser Ranch in Utah and its way expensive, but if I save maybe I could make it happen! I just feel like with how much I have to lose, I need to do something major. I hope with Weight for Love I get this opportunity I'm so desperate for!

My goal tomorrow is to actually do my hair again lolz. Maybe I can't make the physical pain go away, but I can at least change my attitude about things. Chin up sister!