A New Poem by Me!!!!

Escape

                 

I long for escape from this painful, ugly Hell inside me.

A fire burning deep and long that has spread far into my aching soul.

Hiding from the world that would shun me, who would laugh or pity.

An escape from the joy I must witness and yet can’t attain.

I keep it far within, hidden nearly from myself.

The pain I cannot face, breaking my heart into scattered pieces.

The longing from the loss so long ago-

Needing to let go, but afraid to act, to be.

For who am I but this?

And who will I become?

Can I fight the hunger of the flesh and instead feed my anguished soul?

Truly I am more than this,

My God tells me it is so.

I must start the life I’m meant to live.

I know I must forgive and some things I should forget.

But how do you destroy the shackles that have long-pierced your skin?

                                                    

Help me break free from the madness!

The courage I scrape for from within my being.

I run for freedom into the unknown…

With tears of freedom and passion, instead of failure at long-last.

I look back one more time.

I slam the door and walk courageously into the wondrous sunlight.