I'm my own reality

Adam is eating nachos right now, I kind of want to punch him and then take his nachos and run lol.  But that’s okay, I don’t need nachos at 10:38 at night!

So I woke up seriously sore, as I imagined I would after yesterday’s 2.5 miles but I was proud of that pain lol.  And I kind of wonder if that Kyani stuff is helping with the pain too, because there have been other times I’ve overdone it and not been able to do much at all.

I was really worried I wouldn’t physically be able to do the zoo.  I figured I’d have to make myself go and dread having to stop every five minutes and being a big pain in the ass.

But I was actually looking forward to it!  Nothing was going to get in my way of family time.  Sammi needs those types of things.  I just want to be the best Mom I can be!

I am happy to say that I wasn’t stopping every two seconds – there was the part up higher where the giraffes used to be where it is pretty steep that I had to go super slow and take breaks, but other than that I seriously did awesome!  And I looked around and noticed NO ONE my size except for one guy cruising around in a motorized Jazzy or whatever those are called.  Oh sure I saw chubby peeps, but not HEAVY like yours truly.  And although I’m sad for them not being there, I have to say I’ve vastly proud of myself.  It truly wasn’t easy, but it wasn’t the only thing I was thinking about.  I was able to enjoy my little sweetheart and my husband.

After it all, Adam’s app showed that it was 2 miles walking around the zoo!  Hooray!  That just makes me seriously happy.

And I have to give a huge shout out to my father.  I invited him, seriously thinking he would so no, not in a million years as he is trying to get healthy just like me.  But he agreed.  After the first few minutes he told me he was done, but I kept pushing him.  It pained me to do so as you could tell how much it hurt him, but I was so proud of him.  A block is more than he can usually do and he did at least a good mile.  He also got a bike recently and has been going up and down the block. I’ve SO proud of him!

Tomorrow I should get some good exercise cleaning (boo) and then my dad and I are going to go walking/biking in the evening so that will be awesome.

This takes a lot of work, but it is so worth it.

REALITY SHOWS FOR FATTIES

I watched of the Extreme Weight Loss episodes.  I get so inspired by these people who lose so much – though I have to be careful comparing as they lose SO quickly.

It quickly reminded me about my own attempts at being on reality shows.  Those closest to me will remember those days lol.  It all started off with trying out for the Biggest Loser, of which I have now done 4-5 times.  My sister and I sent in a video and were being considered.  We were so bummed at not getting picked.  Then a couple of years ago I was asked to try out for the Extreme Weight Loss.  That was quite a process.  I filled out form after form – writing letters after letters.  Adam helped me make more video tapes than I care to remember.  I was signing release forms!  I was convinced I was going to be chosen and was in the top 50.  But alas it wasn’t meant to be. 

Unbelievable!  I’ve been asked several times to audition but it has never yielded to anything!  Well, f**k that, I will do it on my own!!!

In case you are curious, here is the first audition tape I did on YouTube.